IN CONTINUATION FROM: if you can push, you can pull– TALES FROM THE WALK BEHIND ME, NO.7
As conflicted of an individual as I am, I find that I am still headstrong.
I attribute this to my innate stubbornness–It’s a Capricorn thing, At least that’s what my mom
always used to say still says.
I imagine that I am not alone in my emotions as I find that my mental fortitude is spinning itself a bit more than usual. Perhaps it’s the “new country, no job” financial hurdle that I am so used to experiencing.
Yes that’s exactly what it is, however, the only difference is that things are looking very slim given the circumstances. All these mandatory impositions that keep presenting themselves in ways that prolong them. I admit, it’s all very persistent, highly disciplined, and organized— Something to learn from for my own execution.
It is easy to feel powerless when things seem too big to grasp. Though, what I feel does work in my favor is that I don’t really care too much about the circumstances that present themselves anyway. I may feel overwhelmed by them just like anyone else, I am also quick to realize that even the worst case scenario can be favorable if you look at it that way– lost at sea with no land in sight, you still have a choice in which direction to swim.
Well take what you will out of this little vented moment, but one thing is becoming intuitively clearer by the day– that things have only just started to swing in this free-for all of transition in the world.
“Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.”Friedrich Nietzsche
There’s a fight coming, but, we must not lose ourselves in the process.
Let’s move on!
The following is Number 8 of 14 in the series of blog posts called “Tales From The Walk Behind Me”.
If you’re new to these, it is a series of originally journaled entries through a few of my days —events, experiences, thoughts— along the Camino De Santiago.
If you missed part one, here it is — Click Me!
This is my standard cut and paste disclaimer from the tale before, I will give you the bit of warning because it might not be what you expect– my thoughts can be ugly because I’m a weirdo.
Furthermore, the content will vary, and the timelines will be all over the place because my mind loves a wild goose chase.
You also may question my own benevolence as a human being.